We all have a choice to believe in something, I choose to believe in God!

Saturday, December 31, 2011


It has finally happened. I knew when I started attending this little Baptist church that the spirit of Ichabod was upon it and that if I didn't get out, the quenching of the Holy Spirit would be inevitable. Now, I'm in one of the biggest struggles of my spiritual life. This is a great life's lesson for me. If you walk in the door and the service doesn't move you, neither do people worship nor praise, GET OUT!! That's not the church for me. I go to church to worship and praise God WITH others. Not for them. Not next to them. It's not supposed to be on one shoulder alone.  I need them to hold me up and that way I can be strong to hold them up as well. We're supposed to hold each other up and give each other the refreshing and strength to go on in the service of the Lord. If that's not the design of the church then what is? Jesus preached on the hillsides. Paul preached in letters from prison. The building isn't the point. That's just a roof from the cold and rain while a man of God speaks. We can have church under a bridge. I'm extremely distressed. The thought of starting all over is crushing for me. I don't want to pick up and move to another church. That's not my style. I'm not a socialite. I like the stability and security of attending the same church. But this one is destroying me. It's not that they're doing something "to" me necessarily. It's what isn't happening. When the Holy Spirit comes to a preacher during preaching and he won't allow what needs to take place, he's quenching the Spirit. When he quenches the Spirit, the move doesn't happen and the room is thick with agenda. That to me, means that the preacher will continue speaking the words he planned. Instead of opening his mouth and letting God speak through him. That's just racket. He has become "a tinkling cymbal and a sounding brass" to me. I've been up here a year and can't remember one thing that man ever said. But 8 yrs ago, I can remember a preacher leaping from behind the pulpit and landing 5 steps down and in front of that pulpit under the move of the Holy Spirit. I, myself, have screamed at the top of my lungs and jumped from my seat and bounced around the aisle like a Mexican jumping bean under the move of the Holy Spirit. I had no control of myself. That's just one occasion wherein the Spirit took hold of me and others. You don't do what you want in those moments. No "self-respecting" person would behave like I did. I wouldn't EVER do that in public. But when the Holy Spirit moves you, you just move. That was then and this is now.  I can't even sense a tear in this church. I need a major revival in my soul or I'm afraid of what's gonna happen to me. Why do I talk as if this is out of my control? Because in a way it is. This is the weakness of the flesh. This is the lack of strength. I can't pick me back up without God's help. I just can't. If I could, I would. It's like saying, "I can spoon feed myself without arms." He's the one holding me up and without Him, I starve. I need Him to indwell me, pick me up, revive me, renew, refresh, and set me back on a new path. I trust this will all change. I believe that it's more likely that He's doing a new thing than to simply believe that I'm a weak loser that can't just pick up and go. Since I've given God Lordship over my life, I have to trust that one day, I'll know what to do. I've got to hang in there. I've got to trust Him. But I can't lie and say I'm not a bit worried. I think part of my worry is that the church teaches "attendance is vital." But Jesus never said, "go to church" after healing people in the streets. Does anyone know what it is that He said more times than not? He said, "Go thy way, thy faith hath made thee whole." Where in that sentence do people get, "go to church"? To me, in my studies of God's word, it's just not in there. All of my hard labor in studying this concept of attending church by command hasn't yielded that truth. My studies have shown that people went to church to pay tithes, once a year. They went in observance of a Holy tradition, or in some verses it flat out tells me that they went "seeking the Lord." Nowhere in there does it say, "God commands thee to go to church faithfully or you're not considered right with Him." That's a lie. In fact, the Bible says, "not by might, but by my Spirit." I can't work for this. My butt in that pew doesn't mean anything to God accept that I'm working for something or seeking something. It doesn't put me in "good standing." I don't want people telling that to me. I know what the Bible says and that's where I'm getting my information. Sigh...anyway, I'm holding on and I feel better just getting it out. God bless me.

Thursday, December 22, 2011


After watching a PBS program about Jesus and who He was, I started reading some of the comments people posted. Some ranting and raving about how foolish the believer is to believe. Why do people think that we're foolish to believe in God? The number one answer is, "You can't see Him. How do you know He's real?" To that I would have to ask the question, "What is it that keeps a bus from running over you when you step out into the street?" or "How did that lion NOT kill you just then?" (I know, what kind of question is that!?!). But the point is, there are these circumstances happening to us in this life, and sometimes people survive these incredible deadly circumstances and we ask, "How?" A lost person will say, "fate," or "destiny," "happenstance." Just any number of explanations for how and why they weren't killed. But yet they'll question me if I say, "God! He saved me alive." We get this reaction, "GOD!?! How can you believe in something you can't see?" And yet, here we are, having a conversation wherein you believe in something you can't see as well, "Chance, it saved me alive." "Destiny, it saved me alive." "Fate, it saved me alive." I would have to challenge you on that. How can you believe that "chance" saved you? After all, you can't see it. How do you know it's real? 

Saturday, December 10, 2011


I was watching a special one night, I think it was "Beyond Belief" on ABC. This particular program was about people who had died and lived to tell what they experienced during their moment of "rest" (as I like to call it). Here's what impressed me and really made me believe that at least one of these people really experienced these things. Let me say this, there's a lot of people out there who write books about their death experience and are good writers. There's some phonies as well. I can tell the difference based on a couple of key facts. My writing today, is based on the story of a little boy. I don't know how old he was when he had his experience, but let's remember...he's just a child. He was playing basketball on an indoor court when he suffered an injury to his face. That injury opened his body to the attack of a flesh eating disease. During his struggle to survive, he died. During his death, he lived...with God. That's been told. Many people have told us that they've seen God. But this little boy is the first one that I believed and had no doubts of what he saw/experienced. Why? Because, I've been in the presence of the Holy Spirit many times and never once was I able to stop weeping with joy. I had more joy in those moments then any other in my entire life. I've experienced a lot of "sensations" in the natural but none ever flooded my soul with peace and joy. The Holy Spirit is that. So, I know that when someone talks of being with God there's usually an outward manifestation of that glory left behind. Weeping, laughing, glowing of the face, just sheer joy! This child, as he recounts his story, without ever making a facial expression, begins to weep. This is a 10 yr old boy (the age at the time he recounted the story). A normal, healthy, athletic, boy. Here's what most of us know about a 10 yr old. They don't cry unless necessary. They don't get mushy. They're in the beginning stages of asserting authority over their world as young men coming into puberty. Most are tough guys if possible. This young man was a normal 10 yr. old who loved throwing rocks on the water and playing basketball. A boy. A non-mushy boy. And yet, as he told the story, not a tear UNTIL he spoke of God and meeting him. He began to weep and I KNEW he had truly been in the presence of God and the glory was still upon him. Years later. I knew it was years before that he had the battle for his life. So, here he is, it's been years since he met God, and now he's even older, tougher, and less apt to cry in front of people..and he's weeping as he tells the whole world that he was in the presence of the Lord. There's just no way, in my mind, having raised two 10 yr .olds, that this young man with his athletic sense and true boy ways, is gonna cry about something like this in front of strangers, his mother, HIS DAD!! I know it's possible that he's just a sensitive child. I get that! But why didn't he cry about the other parts of the story? Like his mom's pain, or his face being messed up? He didn't even have expression when he began to weep in the first place. It wasn't an emotion he was expressing. It was the manifestation of a soul print...an abundance of joy left on his soul by the touch of God. It was an outward manifestation of the glory he had been within. The same joy began flooding my soul as well. I knew that somehow, I was in the presence of the Holy Spirit through this child and through the television. I expect readers to gasp in disbelief at how crazy that sounds. Well, there's no time, space, or walls with God. If human kind can create a wire that transfers sound and image, then God can traverse the same lines. It's not that crazy to think. So, it's been a year or two since I watched that program and I still see that little boy's precious face (albeit contorted and horribly scarred by the bacterial attack), his eyes filling with tears as he relives...not remembers....relives that experience with God. God uses these times and these people to remind us that He's there. It's like He (God) occasionally finds Himself someone He knows will tell the world what happened, so we can know too, that God is there!

Tuesday, December 6, 2011


Recently I had a discussion about "once saved always saved" with a dear sister of the faith. This discussion really opened my heart to search to greater depths for this Truth. Although there's often 2 interpretations when 2 people discuss biblical things, one Truth can easily be found. I began in a mindset that we can lose our salvation. Well, true but false. Here's what I now believe based on scripture and not of my opinion. We can lose our salvation, but it's not because He takes it away. It's because we choose to leave it behind. I suppose one could call that "losing your salvation." It is something lost. So, first I found this little pamphlet at the doctor's office that explained how good God is and how he uses certain disciplinary measures to keep us in line and close to Him, like a good parent. The author of that pamphlet, a preacher, used Hebrews 12:5-6 to explain that God "chastens," "scourges," and "rebukes" (using His word [the Bible]) to discipline His children. And instead of just casting us off, He first uses these measures to keep us where we are supposed to be. But then, there's those who "fall away." This is the "losing of the salvation." Yes, it can be lost by us. God will hold us and love us, and discipline us, if necessary. But He won't force us to stay with Him and His beautiful family. It's hard to beleive that there's those out there who would walk away from Him but they do. In the event that a saved person chooses  to give up the "good fight of faith" and walk away from it, that's it. Back into the world they go, lost and undone once again. How do I know? God told me through His word. "For it is impossible for those who were once enlightened, and have tasted of the heavenly gift, and were made partakers of the Holy Ghost, (v.5) and have tasted of the good word of God, and the powers of the world to come, (v.6) if they shall fall away, to renew them again unto repentance; seeing they crucify to themselves the son of God afresh, and put him to an open shame." Hebrews 6:4-6. See, however, it doesn't imply that God casts us off, but that WE cast Him off. I think this is where the church fails to teach the Truth. The churches I've been in don't teach this scripture, they teach St. John 10:28, "I give unto them eternal life; and they shall never perish neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand." I, too, have quoted this particular verse in reference to being saved always. But this is not for those who "fall away" or "walk away" or "return to the worldly ways." This verse is for those who are steadfast in the faith. Unwavering. Immovable. We shall never be plucked from His hand. But God's nature isn't to put a noose around our necks and hold us despite our protests to go free. He will, indeed, release you..immediately. Nobody wants to be with someone who doesn't want to be with them. God epitomizes this. Personally, I'm finally at rest about this subject. The Lord wanted me to know the Truth and He wasted no time in teaching me. He says to me, "Yes, I save you forever daughter. But if this gift isn't wanted by you, then I'll take it back as you offer, but it can't be returned to you once you've given it back." He's wise and all-knowing and who are we to question One such as He?

Wednesday, November 30, 2011


Tonight, I was instantly intrigued by Psalm 96:5 which states, "all the gods of the nations are idols..." It's almost explosive in my spirit the way the Lord leads me into thought on a subject. Of all of the scripture that I read before that and after it, those few words had the most impact. Not because I'm an idol worshipper but because some people are. He wants me to ponder this. He wants me to know what an idol worshipper is and what it means. Many things began swirling around in my mind about it. One thing that stood out is how the devil has gotten into so many people these days and steered their paths towards idols. Even going as far as creating a show called "American Idol." Why do I notice this? Besides the afore mentioned reason? Because it's mentioned many times in the Bible. The Lord takes great offense to idol worshipping. And rightly so. If I were the "one true living God" I'd be offended too. After all, what is an idol? It's something. It takes place in a person's life. It takes too much place. It gets put in front of everything else. It takes precedent over priorities. It gets special attention. It gets spoken to in some cases. It gets prayed to. It gets people's expectations. It gets offerings. It receives sacrifice of ones self. It's shocking what some people will do for their idols a.k.a. "gods." In some countries they pour milk on giant golden cows. In some countries they pray to dead people at the doors of their crypts. In some countries they pray to sun, moon, stars. In other countries they idolize their beasts. In some places (and we know where) cows are allowed to roam the streets without fear of slaughter. In other places, the temples are opened to monkeys because they're thought to be "sacred," even though they'll attack or steal from their hosts. In some countries an idol is a tree adorned with prayer packets.  In America, the idols have become quite extensive. Cars, drugs, sex, sports, movie stars, food, ones own self. But my main focus is on the countries that idolize gods made by man. They are but mere tokens. Images of what comforts the worshipper. Things that the builder builds.  I would love to say to an individual who doesn't know my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ..."what makes you choose that thing as your god, knowing that it needs you? It can't stand on it's own. It didn't decorate itself or adorn itself. It can't provide for itself without your hands, and the work thereof?" The Bible says this about them, "They have mouths but they speak not: eyes have they, but they see not: they have ears, but they hear not: noses have they, but they smell not: They have hands, but they handle not: feet have they, but they walk not: neither speak they through their throat. They that make them are like unto them; so is every one that trusts in them." Psalm 115:4-8. So, how does one expect it to do anything for you? That's the ignorance the Bible tells us of. I don't mean that in a disrespectful way. Ignorance is the lack of knowledge. I wish I could convince just one idol worshipping individual of the Truth. The truth is that anything made by man cannot give back what has been given to it. It can't provide, it can't bless, it can't see, or hear. It's a "dumb" thing. There again, no disrespect meant. I'm almost desperate for the peoples and tribes of the nations to know that their handmade idols are just wood and stone or mineral. They have no ability to do anything. So, why worship a "dumb" thing? How this must hurt our Father. As He sits on His throne with the willingness to touch and bless and love us, He's rejected. Traded. Forgotten. Ignored. His value is as nothing to people because they choose these tangible things of the natural world. It's as if people can't bring themselves to trust in what can't be seen. Accept that, He can be seen. He's all around us. His fingerprints are on all creation. He's seen by those who look. My question has always been, why isn't the world leaning towards Buddhism like they lean towards God in heaven? Buddha doesn't have worldwide disciples taking him anywhere. Giant golden cows covered in milk aren't popping up in the Amazon tribes. That's because they're "dumb" things that can't move or command. They just sit and look golden. So, that's it. My view on the idols and gods of the nations. I say, Praise be to the One True Living God!!! 

Sunday, November 27, 2011


  • "In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth." Genesis 1:1. That gave Him the name of Elohim~The Creator.
  • "And the Lord God formed man of the dust of the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living soul." Genesis 2:7. That gave Him the name of Jehovah~My Lord God.
  • "My God shall supply all thy need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:19. That gave Him the name of El Shaddai~My Supplier.
  • "My Lord, if now I have found favor in thy sight, pass not away, I pray thee, from thy servant:.." Genesis 18:3. That gave Him the name of Adonai~My Master and Lord.
  • "...and behold, behind him a ram caught in a thicket by the horns." Genesis 22:13 (referencing the sacrifice that God provided for Himself in place of Abraham's son), and this gave Him the name Jehovah Jireh~My Provider.
  • "...I will put none of these diseases upon thee, which I have brought upon the Egyptians: for I am the Lord that healeth thee." Exodus 15:26. This gave Him the name Jehovah Rophe~My Healer.
  • "Thus saith the Lord unto you, Be not afraid nor dismayed by reason of this great multitude; for the battle is not yours, but God's." II Chronicles 20:15<>"Ye shall not need to fight in this battle: set yourselves, stand ye still, and see the salvation of the Lord with you..." II Chronicles 20:17. This gave Him the name Jehovah Nissi~My Banner and Victory.
  •  "I am the Lord which sanctify you." Leviticus 20:8. This gave Him the name Jehovah Mikkadesh~My Sanctifier.
  • "Behold, the days come, saith the Lord, that I will raise unto David a righteous Branch, and a King shall reign and prosper, and shall execute judgment and justice in the earth. In His days Judah shall be saved, and Israel shall dwell safely: and this is His name whereby He shall be called, THE LORD OUR RIGHTEOUSNESS." Jeremiah 23:5-6. This gave Him the name Jehovah Tsidkenu~My Righteousness.
  • "And the Lord said unto him, Peace be unto thee; fear not: thou shalt not die. Then Gideon built an altar there unto the Lord, and called it Jehovah shalom." Judges 6:23-24. This gave Him the name Jehovah Shalom~My Peace. 
  • "The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want." Psalm 23:1. This gave Him the name Jehovah Rohi~My Shepherd.
  • "It was round about eighteen measures: and the name of the city from that day shall be, The Lord is There." Ezekial 48:35. This gave Him the name Jehovah Shammah~My Abiding Presence, The Lord is There. 

Friday, November 18, 2011


As I studied Matthew Chapter 14, I thought of the nature of our Lord Jesus Christ. I came to realize what a very long day He had in that chapter and how He dealt with the issues that arose. The day pretty much began with the news of His friend John's beheading by Herod the tetrarch. It tells us in verse 13 that, "When Jesus heard of it, He departed thence by ship into a desert place apart." I interpret His actions to be that He needed to get alone (or try) and process this heartbreak. Then began the healing of some 5,000 people, or at the very least, 2,000 of that number (as stated in verse 21). Then, the disciples suggest to Him that He end the day's activities because, "the time is now past," verse 15. But instead, Jesus differs with them and suggests that they feed the people with their own food supply. In verse 19 "...He blessed , and break, and gave the loaves to His disciples, and the disciples to the multitude." That's 5,000 people. Stop a moment and imagine that many. Now remember, in verse 14, "...He saw a great multitude and was moved with compassion toward them, and He healed their sick." So, now He's spent the time it took to heal the multitudes one by one, and feed them one by one. Finally, it tells us in verse 23, "He went up into a mountain apart to pray." So, now He's climbed a mountain. Mind you, that strength and energy comes from somewhere other than within Himself. I gave thought to the time it took to heal that many, then to feed that many, and all with the heavy heart of losing a friend and a brother. Fast forward and it says in verse 25, "In the fourth watch of the night Jesus went unto them (disciples)..." I figure the fourth watch to be around 3-6 a.m. Now, He's confronted with the ship's dilemma as it's being "..tossed with waves for the wind was contrary," verse 24. This is where I got the revelation of it all. The needs. The people and their needs and how He met them all, where they were, in the middle of the needs each had. There wasn't a "meeting place" or a special building. He was in the midst of it all as it happens and where it happens. Isn't that just like life? I don't wait until Sunday to have a dilemma so He can meet me there and resolve it. Or Saturday, whichever you prefer. So, in this chapter I count 3 obvious needs. Healing, hunger, deliverance. But there's underlying needs such as comfort, rest, peace of mind, the gift of love. To name a few. I like when the disciples tell Him to end His activities with the people so, "they can go into the villages and buy themselves victuals (supplies or food)" verse 15. However, Jesus insists on meeting their needs with His own supply. Note: Verse 20 says, "They did all eat and were filled: and they took up of the fragments that remained 12 baskets full." More than enough, as it says in Ephesians 3:20, "...Him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think,..." What about the desperation and fear that Peter experiences as he began to sink from the surface of the water, which only happened when he took his eyes off of Jesus and began seeing the storm around him. This symbolizes us in this life. When we take our eyes off of Christ, we begin to sink. Notice however what Jesus did when Peter begins to cry out for Jesus to help him. Peter says, "Lord, save me," verse 30. It says, "And immediately Jesus stretched forth His hand, and caught him..." verse 31. Hallelujah!!!! If you cry out to Him today, now...expect the strongest hand to grab hold of your life and pull you from the dangerous waves. You'll find the prayer at the end of this page. I hope you'll go.

Saturday, November 12, 2011


"Though He had commanded the clouds from above, and opened the doors of heaven, and had rained down manna upon them to eat, and had given them of the corn of heaven. Man did eat angels' food: He sent them meat to the full. He caused an east wind to blow in the heaven: and by His power He brought in the south wind. He rained flesh also upon them as dust, and feathered fowls like as the sand of the sea: And He let it fall in the midst of their camp, round about their habitations. So they did eat, and were well filled: for He gave them their own desire; They were not estranged from their lust. but while their meat was yet in their mouths, The wrath of God came upon them, and slew the fattest of them, and smote down the chosen men of Israel. For all this they sinned still, and believed not for His wondrous works. Therefore their days did He consume in vanity, and their years in trouble. When He slew them, then they sought Him: and they returned and inquired early after God. And they remembered that God was their rock, and the high God their redeemer. Nevertheless they did flatter Him with their mouth, and they lied unto Him with their tongues. For their heart was not right with Him, neither were they steadfast in His covenant. But He, being full of compassion, forgave their iniquity and destroyed them not: yea, many a time turned He His anger away, and did not stir up all His wrath. For He remembered that they were but flesh; a wind that passes away, and comes not again." Psalm 78:23-39.
If ever I had credibility with my Father, daily I destroy that credibility. If He makes His face to shine upon me for His grace and mercy, daily I give Him reason to look away. If I have found any favor with Him, daily that favor lessens with my every failure to serve. If I make Him to smile at the thought of myself, His daughter, daily His smile is replaced with a frown. If His heart is warmed by my willing spirit, daily His heart would wax cold by my unwillingness. Can I make Him to love me any less? Can I please Him by my deeds? Is my presence in a church service the act He's waiting for me to perform? Can I earn any one ray of light? Are my words pleasing to His ear? Can I reach His Truth by stretching out my hand? Can I reach Him by my efforts? Oh God of my soul of my life and the light from within my spirit....forgive me that I have hurt you so, please forgive me Father. What wilt thou that I can do to amend my misdeeds? Can I find Favor with thee oh God by wishing it? Can I simply ask? Wilt thou hear me Father? Hear me, if I can beg that of thee Lord, I've opened this my prayer to the world, I've hurt you Father. I've broken your heart. As the children of Israel...I've broken your heart. I have no redeeming qualities that thou would want me but thy mercy endures forever and your grace is sufficient. Your strength is mine, your love is my health and existence. I breathe because you bless every breath. My heart is failing for fear and failing for sadness. I'm a woman of constant sorrow. You oh Lord, are my redeemer and will pluck my feet from the snare. How I love thee, I will serve you Father, all my days. I won't ask you why you've made me thus. I'll "only believe." I'll believe your word and your promises within. It's not by might but by your Spirit. Blessed be your name. Thank you Jesus! I have only my life. I own nothing. I can not add one cubit to my stature by speaking it. I am what you'd have me to be. I owe you my life such as it is. It's yours and for you it is meant to Glorify. I will remember Ecclesiastes 12:13 "...fear God and keep His commandments: for this is the whole duty of man." Thank you for forgiveness, mercy, grace, and the life I've been given. To you be the glory forever and forever, Amen.

Thursday, November 3, 2011


I have to give God praise for showing me the way. I find myself looking for the right path daily. Always, I ponder His will in it all. I could take any path I choose, but for those of us who've travelled our own path as well as that of the Father's, we know all too well what our wrong choices can lead to. It's truly a daily dilemma. I'm shocked at Satan's stamina. My goodness, that dude can persue and afflict and haunt for hours and hours and days and months and years. He doesn't run out of tools, nor tactics. There's no way, Christians, that we can get through this without asking God which way. Go ahead...try. I've spent more time back tracking in this life for thinking I could figure it out. Never ever second guess yourself if you know that you're in God's will for your life. That tiny "still" voice that says, "not good, don't do it," ya, that's Him. That instinct that says, "hm, this doesn't feel right," ya, that's Him. Follow it! Follow Him. He works so much harder than the enemy to deliver us. God's stamina is far beyond the devil's. I see, with my spiritual eyes, the deliverance daily. My natural eyes only see the surface of this world and that's what the enemy uses to confuse and dismay. He'll convince you that what you're seeing is what's happening to you and that there's no way out...as you can see. Then, God, like that mighty rushing wind, swoops in and scoops me right out of it. I always feel like the toddler looking over the back of my daddy's shoulder as he carries me off to safety....I'm looking back at where I was and seeing the enemy still standing there with that stupid look on his worthless face wondering how I got out from under him, while I stick my tongue out at him and say, " neener neener neener." Why does he even try with us? Oh ya, that's right, because there's those who will weaken and crumble. You know why? You're not armed. The Bible says, "Put on the whole armour of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Wherefore, take unto you the whole armour of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day and having done all to stand. Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; and your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace; above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God:..." Ephesians 6:11-17. It's just this simple...if something afflicts you or vexes you, use the word of God, say "Many are the afflictions of the righteous: but the Lord delivers him out of them all." Psalm 34:19. See if hope and faith doesn't rise up inside of you (if you're saved and in the Lord Jesus Christ). If you aren't, go to the bottom of this page and say the prayer found at the bottom and invite Jesus in. Let Him deliver you out of all of your afflictions. I promise, He never fails. God bless you if you do and I'll meet you in paradise.

Sunday, October 30, 2011


'Twas battered and scarred, and the auctioneer
Thought it scarcely worth his while
To waste much time on the old violin,
But held it up with a smile.
"What am I bidden, good folks," he cried,
"Who'll start the bidding for me?"
"A dollar, a dollar;" then, "Two, only two?
Two dollars and who'll make it three?
Three dollars, once; three dollars twice;
Going for three.." but no,
From the room, far back, a grey-haired man
Came forward and picked up the bow;
Then, wiping the dust from the old violin,
And tightening the loose strings,
He played a melody pure and sweet
As a caroling angel sings.

The music ceased, and the auctioneer,
With a voice that was quiet and low,
Said, "What am I bid for the old violin?"
And he held it up with the bow.
"A thousand dollars, and who'll make it two?
Two thousand and who'll make it three?
Three thousand once, three thousand twice,
And going, and gone," said he.
The people cheered, but some of them cried,
"We do not quite understand,
What changed it's worth." Swift came the reply;
"The touch of the master's hand."

And many a man with life out of tune,
And battered and scarred with sin,
Are auctioned cheap to the thoughtless crowd,
Much like the old violin.
A hot needed meal, a glass of wine;
An event--and he travels on.
He is "going once, and going twice,"
He's "going and almost gone."
But the master comes, and the foolish crowd
Never quite understand
The worth of a soul and change that's wrought
By the touch of the Master's hand.

This is me. This was my life. Covered in the dust of sin, out of tune with the Father, His sweet melody long ago squelched and hindered from flowing from me. But, then He found me where I was, tucked in the case of life, never to be heard again from the place of melody's song. He wiped off the sin, tuned the strings of my heart and drew His love across my strings. The sound was sweet and pure and true and real and it touched those around me. All it took was His touch, the touch of the Master's hand.

Sunday, October 23, 2011


I'm seeing on the news that Moammar Gadhafi has been dethroned. I'm not a person that watches the world news nor do I follow such things. I'm a "follower" of only One. Jesus Christ. But, I have seen and chose to watch the footage of his last moments on this earth. Horrible. Just terrifying to imagine. I don't feel a bit of compassion, sympathy, or any like emotion for a man that I'm understanding to be a tyrant and a dictator over his people. I don't believe that God sees their actions as righteous, necessarily, because they took his life with their hands. God would have seen to their earnest prayers had they asked Him to deal with it. But, all of that aside, I see the stories of his life, his past, his choices, his actions, his delusions of grandeur. I saw how he adorned himself as if he was a great and mighty king of some sort. I can only think of one thing in this regard and that's the Truth of God's Holy Word (yes I capitalized all of that) which says, "...for every one that exalts himself shall be abased;..." St. Luke 18:14. Why in this world do people think of themselves so highly? How can we? Look at us. Full of sin, mischief, misdeeds, evil thoughts, evil intentions of the heart, fornications, addictions, self-serving actions, apathy. The list is so extensive. I hope Momar is an example to the world of how God's Word comes to pass. If He says it shall be...then believe that it shall be. You just never know when, but it's coming. He keeps His word even if it breaks His heart to do so because, He's not like us. He is perfect and Holy and cannot lie. I imagine Him hanging His head in grief as He performs His Word as sworn and promised. Other times, He's elated to do so in certain regards, but we know that blessings can't govern our lives. It was Job who said, "...shall we receive good at the hand of God, and shall we not receive evil?" Job 2:10. How true my brother! It is Kelline that says, "behind every blessing I seem to experience a curse." Life of Kelline 0:0. But, that's o.k. I'm on my way out of here. I have no regrets, all of my sins have been confessed (daily with each new 1,2,3...). I'm right with Him by the power of His Spirit. As it says, "...Not by might, nor by power, but by my Spirit, saith the Lord of hosts." Zechariah 4:6. What that verse means is...you can't work your way into righteousness. As it's written, "But we are all as an unclean thing, and all our righteousnesses are as filthy rags..." Isaiah 64:6. So, I wait for Him with whom I have to do. Glory be to the One True Living God!!!

Saturday, October 22, 2011


I gotta give God praise for getting me through this week!! Wow! Without going into boring details, I didn't know how to start. But I know with Whom I was able to finish. Why do I ever doubt Him? He has never once let me down. He's never once said, "No daughter." He's only ever said, "Let me show you a better way than the one that you think is the best." I swear I can't think of one prayer that had a "No" answer attached to it. I might be one of a few people that doesn't ask for riches, fame, wild beauty, etc. I'm more interested in those things of the Spirit where it counts. The depths of my soul are where the need is. And that's where He works the best. I've never said, "God, make me rich," but I'm sure that if I had, His answer would be something like, "Let me show you how much better simplicity is." I've experienced a lot of life's lessons in that regard. It wasn't me teaching me the values that count. So, what used to be a desire for the natural, became a hunger for the spiritual, and He answered that prayer right away. It's amazing how quick we can get what we want when it's His will. When we ask for the things that aren't in His will, we can be waiting a long time and in the end, we'll just end up with a lesson on why the thing we asked for wasn't good for us after all. Why bother taking a route that will lead you the long way around to the wrong destination?

Saturday, October 15, 2011


Advocate~Shiloh~The Resurrection and the Life~Shepherd and Bishop of Souls~Judge~Master~Lord of Lords~Rock~Man of Sorrows~Savior~Head of the Church~Faithful and True Witness~Servant~High Priest~Living Water~Bread of Life~Rose of Sharon~Messiah~Alpha & Omega~True Vine~Teacher~Holy One~I AM~Mediator~The Beloved~Son of God~Good Shepherd~Branch~Light of the World~The Almighty~Carpenter~Image of the Invisible God~The Door~The Word~Bridegroom~Chief Cornerstone~Redeemer~Author and Finisher of our Faith~Everlasting Father~Lamb of God~King of Kings~Lion of the Tribe of Judah~Anchor~Prophet~Only Begotten Son~Wonderful Counselor~Immanuel~Son of Man~Dayspring~The Amen~King of the Jews~Bright and Morning Star~Prince of Peace~The Way~The Truth~The Life~Holy One~Deliverer~Potentate~Prince of Life~The Just One~JESUS CHRIST of Nazareth

Wednesday, October 12, 2011


As I was surfing other blogs recently, I began to notice just how many people mention God. There's a world of us. The truth is, "Believers" (as we like to be known), are quite plentiful. Most people believe in God but don't want to admit it. Jesus said, "If you deny me before men, then I will deny you to my Father." So, how many are out there with a heart full of God and mouth full of the world? We can't bless God with the tongue and at the same time speak like the world. "Doth a fountain send forth at the same place sweet water and bitter?" James 3:11. Fear is what drives people to deny God. Fear of retribution. Fear of not "fitting in." Fitting in to what? What does this world have that's so important that we must fit into it? Nothing. It offers temporary pleasures peppered with misery, in abundance. So therefore, "...come out from among them, and be ye separate, saith the Lord, and touch not the unclean thing; and I will receive you." II Corinthians 6:17. Praise God! So simple. It's the simple choice to be unto yourself and separated unto God. It's the desire for a deeper meaning to your life. It's a longing for the Truth. It's the "why" finally reaching to the "because." It's choosing the other in place of yourself. It's knowing that you've left a "love print" on another's heart. It's laying down at night and truly resting. It's when you CAN sleep because your mind actually shuts off. Why doesn't our minds shut off when we lay down at night? Because of all the nonsense that we bog ourselves down with. "Did I make the car payment?" "What time did I make my hair appointment for and will it overlap with my nail appointment?" "Did I call my editor?" "I need to get in touch with that lawyer." It goes on and on for some of us. For others, like myself, I know with Whom I have to do. So I keep it simple, read scripture so I can know Who it is that I serve, pray for others as the Spirit gives me utterance, forgive others their trespasses as God forgives mine, and at night, I lay down knowing that I'm right with my God. I know when I'm wrong as well, and that can be changed with a simple choice.

Thursday, October 6, 2011


I decided that in order for me to serve God with all my heart, then I need to know who He is. The only way to know who He is, is to read His word, His love letter to me. Then, I needed to seek out every word that described Him. Verbs (action words-things He does). This is what I found in just the first 3 books of the Bible, Genesis, Exodus, and Leviticus. God: appoints, avenges,affects, answers, appears, accepts, adds unto us, abides, annoints, abhors, assays, accurses, advances, blesses, breathes, brings, builds, becomes my salvation, blows, bares, breaks, be, bestows, blots, begets, bears, begins, chases, claves, commands, clothes, curses, chooses, causes, covenants, comes down, confounds, corrects, communes, closes, charges, comes (in a dream), calls, casts, cuts off, consumes, covers, clears, consecrates, chastises, concieves, carries, chastens, cares for, decides, delivers, divides, does, deals with, is, drives out, destroys, does, dashes, descends, dwells, draws out, departs, disinherits, delights, defies, dries up (the waters), discomfits, establishes, entreats, endues, executes, enlarges, expels, exalts, feeds, finds, falls upon us, fights, fulfills, fills, forgives, forbids, forsakes, fetches, fathers, forms, flies, gives, grieves, goes, guides, gets, gathers, hears, heals, hearkens, has, hardens, honors, helps, holds, hallows, humbles, hates, hides, heaps, is, instructs, judges, justifies, knows, keeps, kills, kindles, looses, looks upon, leads, lays, looks through, looks unto, lives, loves, lifts up, marks, multiplies, makes, magnifies, meets, moves, nourishes, names, opens, overthrows, promises, plagues, possesses, provides, prospers, performs, puts, passes by/through/over, purchases, plants, proves, prepares, pardons, proclaims, presents, punishes, provokes, parts, preserves, plucks, questions, requires, rises, rewards, receives, requites, replaces, recompenses, regrets, rents, rebuilds, rides, restrains, rejects, reminds, removes, remembers, renames, repeats, reassures, rains, rebukes, redeems, rids, raises us up, reigns, records, repents, reforms, refuses, repays, rejoices, returns, renders, sanctifies, sees, separates, speaks, searches, shuts, spends, starts, shines, stops, subdues, smells, scatters, shows, shields, sets, spares, smites, sends, saves, slays, suffers, swears, stretches (forth His hand), seeks, severs, shows, strengthens, stands, takes, tempts, tells, takes, teaches, turns, troubles, triumphs, talks with, thinks, thrusts out, testifies, thunders, visits, vexes, waters, withholds, watches, witnesses, wills, wroughts, writes, works, walks, withstands, wounds, whets (a sword). HOW'S THAT FOR MIGHTY GOD!!!??? Those are just the verbs. That list doesn't include what He IS. I've got that list nearly completed as well. In Him is all human nature. All that we are can be found in Him. Obviously He wants us to know Him for who He IS. Churches tend to say only 2 things about Him...He loves and He forgives! How about the rest of who He is? He's all things to all people! I love you Father!!!!

Wednesday, October 5, 2011


I have so much to be grateful for. I have so little on this earth and so much in my soul! Even if I had so much on this earth, it could never compare to what's in my soul. I've been baptized in the Holy Spirit and am saturated in the Word of God. As I reflect back on the life I used to live, I see the lack of meaning in it. The shopping, the hair, the make-up, the jewelry. It all meant nothing. Every bit of it could've come to a screeching halt at anytime. It didn't. I ended it. I chose a meaningful path. I chose a path that would lead me somewhere. I chose depth. The surface is seen. What's left after you've seen it? Another surface? And then? But inside, there's no beginning and no end. There's no color and yet all colors. There's facets, stairways, doors, openings to other openings. Just when I begin to think I get it, there's more to learn. Once, I picked up a bass guitar, I learned it. I can play. But I got so bored so fast. I knew it wasn't depth. It's interesting, it's something to make your own. It's a way to create. But, it's all been done. Every sound has been repeated. Every note has been played. Music is an intricate part of life, needful, spiritual. But it's been done. I haven't. Me. Nobody has lived me. Nobody has repeated me. There's something different through every door. He has made a universe of just me, here, where I am. It's not that I love me, it's that I love how He loves me and wants me to know how much. He has shown me that He spent so much time just creating me. He didn't just zap me down here onto the planet. He gave me depth, wisdom, love, desire, boldness, shyness, curiosity, knowledge, ability, ambition, need, experience, purpose, meaning, hunger, etc. And then there's the facets of each of those. Then there's the purpose in each of those. Then there's the individuality of each of those in me. The unique creation that is me. The layers upon layers. The inside of the inside. The heart of my heart and the soul of my soul. Where I am but only because He is, first.

Monday, October 3, 2011


So, I get up this morning and go out to feed my friend his breakfast and I notice that the sky is extremely blue and smooth and perfect and without blemish or cloud. I stared for a long time trying to find just a speck of something up there. Nothing. Where did the stars go? How is it that they're there but not seen? Does the sun shine on them and their surrounding space so brightly that it all blends? How can they just not be seen at all but be there? They're still right where they were in the night. Different stars of course, since the planet is turning. But, there nonetheless. Why is the sky blue? What makes it blue? I didn't choose that color. So, who did? And why blue? So, blue is the color of the sky. That's the color God chose for us to see as the color that designates the sky. Not yellow along with the sun. Blue. Not green to blend with the treetops, blue. How did He separate the colors? How does He stop the sun from being yellow outward instead of just in itself? It's like the ocean, how does it know to stop at the shore? How come it rains on the ocean in places adding many many feet per day of water, but it never goes past it's shoreline? (unless a cataclysmic event on the ocean floor pushes it).When I look outside, I see EVERYTHING praising God. I see that every green thing reaches up. Science will say it's reaching for the sun, I get that. The sun is needful, indeed, but why does it stay that way? When I get up in the morning, I lift my face to the light, but at night I lay down and curl into a ball. Why do plants stay reaching? Why don't they lay down and curl into a ball at night? Even a whale, will breach UP out of the water. It doesn't breach down. The Bible says that Jesus is the light of the world. Have you ever seen what lives in the deepest depths of the oceans? Have you noticed how evil and horrifying those creatures of the dark are? Compare them to the things that grow in the sun! Beautiful, bright, vibrant colors with fragrances that attract beautiful hummingbirds and honey-making bees. A tiny flying creature that makes food for humans. And it doesn't even mean to. It's all God's handiwork. I imagine God walking amongst us in the cool of the day just as He did in the Garden of Eden. He did such a beautiful job when He created this planet. He used love. I can see it. Love is what it takes to make things grow and thrive. Love is beauty. It's all here!!

Thursday, September 29, 2011


It took me years to understand what it means to have God's mercies. So, here's what we know, "...our adversary, the devil, as a roaring lion, walks about seeking whom he may devour." I Peter 5:8. What it means to be "devoured" by your adversary or enemy (the devil) is to find yourself completely consumed with grief, sorrow, trial, tribulation, etc. That's how he "devours." Ever feel that way? Ever feel like "it's always something?" That's your enemy seeking to devour you. His goal is to completely and utterly destroy you. He will use any tactic and any person to achieve his goals. He'll send people to say all the wrong things at the wrong times. He'll afflict your body with sickness and disease. He'll cause tribulation to follow you or wait around every corner. He has "little helpers." I like to call them minions. They're the ones on your job or at school that run around spreading rumors about you. They're the ones that steal your stuff. They're the ones that pretend to be your friend to your face, but will steal your mate if they get the chance. They're the ones that are ever so quick to ask you for help or to borrow something, but never have it to give when you need it. They're the ones who only call to dump on you but when you need someone to talk to, they're never there. Those are all satan's little helpers, his minions. And he uses them daily in an attempt to devour you. That's where God's mercies come in. You may not have ever given Him a thought, but He has given you one. He's the reason I haven't been consumed by all that happens to me. Yes, I struggle and suffer, but it's never more than I'm able to bear. I've glimpsed the depths of despair but God never let me stay there. It's as if He wanted me to see what I could be experiencing as opposed to what I actually am experiencing. He is merciful. All I've ever done is ask Him to help me. Deliver me. Save me. Set me free. Give me peace. Show me the way out. And He's faithful to answer every single time. Every single time. Every single time!!!!! So, today, I wept. And then I begged for mercy. So, tonight, I smile.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011


I'm still learning how to blog effectively, still trying to download photos. One thing I know is, how to Glorify God with my blog. So, today I'm posting a poem I wrote and published in a book called, "Collected Whispers," published by International Library of Poetry. I wrote so many poems through Divine inspiration but for some reason, this is the one He (God) wanted, this is the one He chose. It's not Shakespearean, only me being used by Him. 

Life's problems can be so cumbersome,
I'm so glad to know the Lord.
He's the strength I need to get through each day,
And eternity is my reward.
For living each day to His glory,
For devoting myself to His will,
For responding to the voice I hear,
Though it be so small and still.
There's a race that I must run,
A race that I'm determined to win.
I'm not racing against other people,
Though I'm running like the wind.
I run the race of living,
And sometimes I fall behind,
But Jesus is there to cheer me on.
He waits at the finish line.
And when I get there, oh, joy abounds
For those of us who ran,
And I'm happy to share the winning prize
With every woman and man
I'm not the only one running,
And I won't be the only one to win,
But if Jesus asks me what I think,
I don't want to run it again!

Tuesday, September 27, 2011


O.k. world, riddle me this...if we came from an explosion in space or a process called "evolution," then where did we get such depth? Why do we cry? Why are some of us more passionate than others? What makes us feel each other's pain? Why do all of us, with a heart, seem to have the same reaction to puppies and babies? What makes some of us jump in to save the drowning victim and others just stand by and watch the victim get saved? Where's the "evolution" and "explosion" in all of that love and depth of our human nature? Why is a nation that was founded on Christian principles (that would be America) more apt to reach out to 3rd world countries with help, than non-Christian nations? What is the deciding factor that makes up the heart of a person who goes into the mission field? Do you realize what they go through just to spread love (which is the Gospel of Jesus Christ)? So much sacrifice! Just like Jesus. So, this is what I'm really proposing...we are the clay on the spinning wheel of God. So, therefore, the same way that Picasso's work was identified by his style, so too, is God's style seen. Not only that, but notice His signature, His fingerprint on everything that breathes, grows, lives and wasn't created by man. I've spoke of this in earlier blogs but I can't help mentioning it again. It's like computing, there's several ways in but you'll always arrive at the same place. There's no way that science can explain our origins completely and fully and to our satisfaction. So, I leave this blog full of questions. Do you know the answers? Can you prove it? I'm gonna believe what the Holy Bible says because it makes sense and exploding rocks don't.

Sunday, September 11, 2011


God bless America on this 9/11 anniversary. Inside, I'm giggling, just knowing how hard the terrorists TRIED to destroy us, terrify us, debilitate us. And yet, here we stand, America the beautiful, home of the brave!! Still beautiful still brave!! You can't steal a people's spirit Mr. Terrorist. You can't knock over a couple of our buildings and kill a nation. News flash, we procreate over here and even the people who lost their precious lives that day, have people going on for them. That's because we don't quit at tragedy. We use it to get stronger. We gain knowledge from your mistakes. On behalf of my people, let me thank you for it. My son joined the Air Force so he could do his part. How's that for "plans back-fired!" And let me say this as well, (like you can stop me), we love our people over here in the land of the free and the home of the brave. We love!!! Watch us rise up!!! Watch us getting stronger!!! Watch us overcome your evil with our good to the degree that YOUR people are here living in harmony with us. You know why? Because we're not like you!! We don't waste precious time and energy thinking up ways to hurt people in another country just because they worship differently. That's what it's really about, isn't it? Good vs. Evil, God vs. Satan!! Why is Satan who he is? Jealousy. He was jealous of God, so he proposed to put himself at or above God, and DOWN HE TUMBLED!! Terrorists, same thing. Jealous, busy worrying about us and what we're doing and wanting to stop us from how we live so they can be a supreme race. Hmmm. Seems like we've heard that story before (Nazi regime). Look how that story turned out. Face it, all you terrorists out there....you won't win. God is good, God is just, God is merciful, loving, kind, forgiving. He's your opposite and just like He won the heavenly battle, American's (who carry His spirit within our hearts) will always win the earthly battle. IF you prefer to fight. We don't pick 'em, we just win 'em. What can we say? It's a God thing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD BLESS AMERICA!!! OH, WAIT...HE ALREADY DID!!!!

Friday, September 9, 2011


This is what I would have the world to know, that my Jesus can do all things. I am so exhausted. My spirit is weak and my body is frail. But, I know where to run for strength and renewal. So, while I'm praying to Him for all my needs, He shows up like the omnipotent God that He is. He doesn't ask for anything in return. He just washes over me like a mighty wave of peace and renewal. I don't know where each second will take me but I can know how I'll get to each second and with Whom I'll be traveling. He guides every step. He was the One Who told me to come to Him in my moments of sadness and weakness. Sometimes, I'm so tired that I can't even pray. I'm still tired even now, but I'm gonna get to the next second until all seconds have been exhausted and my mission on this earth has been fulfilled. That's really all I want, is to fulfill my mission, which each person has. Some people know what they were put here to do, and some people spend their whole lives searching. I'm still searching. I wish I knew. I wish I knew that the direction that I'm going in is the right one. It feels too exhausting to possibly be the right one but the Bible says, "where we are weak, He is strong." So, what appears to me to be the impossible, is actually nothing more than an arena for God to show Himself strong and capable in. I wouldn't take a step or a breath without Him. I tried that. Did NOT work. I can't do this thing called "life" on my own. I need Him. We all need a strength that comes from something other than anything this world can give. It's this world that drains the strength. It's God that puts it back.

Monday, September 5, 2011


I resent being referred to as a glorified monkey.  I didn't evolve, or crawl out of the sea as an amoeba.  I was "fearfully and wonderfully made" by a God whos fingerprints can be seen in the fact that almost every single living breathing creature/animal has 2 eyes over 1 nose and 1mouth.  If everything is the product of something as simplistic as evolution, then what's all the fabulous beauty and colors for?  Why would a "process" create beautiful colors?  Evolution dictates that something evolved to sustain itself in it's environment.  Why would a mallard duck need to be painted so beautifully so it can eat or breed?  Wouldn't it just have instinct?  Or scent?  Or sight?  Noooo.  Something much deeper is going on here.  Why would we wonder further than ourselves spiritually?  Why are we contemplating any of it if we're the product of a "process"? And why are the monkeys that ARE, still the same monkeys?  You know, scientists tell us that earlier human forms were us then.  Noooo.  Just like dinosaurs eventually grew extinct, certain human races have died off in a land that certainly must have been extremely harsh. What's to say those early forms of human weren't God's 1st attempts at what he finally settled on?  People, look deep inside yourselves, you aren't something evolved.  You are someone.  You have a soul.  There is a God.  He thought you up and breathed life into you.  Dig deep.  Don't let some scientific fact fool you into letting go of your humanity. Why do we cry and hurt?  Evolution wouldn't give you feelings.  Just instincts to survive.  That's the whole basis of evolution.  No scientist ever said, "people evolved from lower life forms so that they could effectively soothe their fellow man's broken heart after a divorce," or "so a mother could kiss her child's boo-boo."  Evolution is a process.  People are a CREATION and all things created have a creator.  A creator who gave us so much more than instinct to eat or breed.  Scientists have an answer for everything but God's the One who gave them all of their wisdom and insight.  Evolution, by it's very nature, wouldn't have anything to do with things of the spirit.  If you've ever wondered if there is a God, then there is a God. 

Thursday, August 25, 2011


I feel like I have to defend my people, Christians.  There's too many posers out there.  When somebody has a need and they go to a website that offers prayer, and what they find is a whole lot of places to click on in order to "give" or "donate" or "pledge," it can be discouraging.  A true Christian is one who serves others.  Not one who asks for others to serve them.  Jesus never posted a sign on his door that read, "Donate here."  In actuality, the Bible tells us that Jesus had no place to lay His head.  But if he did, that sign wouldn't be there.  He came to each person with one question, "What wilt thou that I should do for you?"  It's appalling to me to go to a website of a national television program, Christian based, and find 10 different places you can click on to find what you need and the only one highlighted in bright red is "give to..."  It shouldn't be there at all.  God promises to supply our needs.  We don't have to beg it from others.  What the needy soul should see is headings that ask, "what wilt thou that we can do for you?"  People, know this...a true Christian doesn't focus their abilities on how they can get something out of others.  A true Christian already knows that God's supplying every need.  He is our source.  So, let me apologize to the needy souls of the world that have been discouraged by the behaviors of those pretending to know Jesus.  Don't give up, we're out here in the world ready to show love.  Jesus is ready to work through us. 

Sunday, August 21, 2011


I used to wonder what would happen if the sun didn't rise.  I actually worried at times about it.  Then, I was saved by the blood of Jesus Christ and so many truths began to emerge.  One of those Truths was the fact that all things are under the Lord's control and He is faithful, unlike us.  The sun will always rise.  There's no one thing in this life, this universe, that will stop the sun from rising if that's what the Lord wants it to do. It's such a simple thing to so many.  It's definitely something taken for granted, perhaps never even pondered by most.  But, I believe every soul wonders about their origins.  The Bible tells us that science is "vain babbling."  How in this world can anyone believe that all of the order on the planet earth is the result of an explosion in outer space?  Do this, take a bag and fill it with pebbles. Then poor them out abruptly and see how many times they'll spell your name perfectly and "in order."  Never happen.  That's what science wants you to believe created this world.  Some unknown force abruptly tossed a bag of rocks and it spelled out all of the perfect order and beauty and design of this planet.  Or, just dig deep and find your soul.  Why would we even wonder about our origins if that's all there is to us?  Hmmmm. 

Thursday, August 18, 2011


God's so amazing!!  I have a phobia of mice and so, that's what he used to reunite my son and I.  If it weren't for that little critter, I wouldn't have been in town on the evening that my son was also.  We ran into each other!!  Oh, what joy floods my soul at the sight of my children!!  God used that mouse and my phobia to get me out to town.  The chain of events of that evening were all so out-of-the-ordinary type of events.  In the 7 yrs I've lived here, I've never had a mouse.  But, there was a need in my life to see my son and hug him and tell him how much I love him.  Such a need.  So, God met that need by using a mouse.  I'm sorry to all mouse lovers but the mouse served it's single purpose in life and is now in "cheese heaven."  Don't worry, it was a humane passing.  I might try a different kind of trap next time (one that catches and releases) but at this time in my phobia-ridden life, I had to seek and destroy that little feller.  It's ok, God's in control, even of the mice of the world.