We all have a choice to believe in something, I choose to believe in God!

Tuesday, July 31, 2012


I believe I should glorify God by letting the rest of the world see that things aren't all bad all the time and we can overcome with faith and patience. Therefore, I felt like using a fun color to lighten the mood of my last entry! Sometimes, it's the simplest things in life that can bring a little light or joy in a dark moment.        

It's hard for others to relate to having many trials to come down on you at once unless you're in the same situation at the time. I've been trying to chronicle the reality of my life without sugar-coating it or coming off to others as if all around me is perfection. That would be a lie. Perfection is nowhere to be seen, but that's probably nothing I need to tell anyone else. What I can attest to, along with the trials, is God's hand reaching in to save me.

The Lord is an everlasting God and He's faithful. Those two attributes alone make for a Father of Fathers! I could never ask for greater love. Though things are far from being what I need them to be, I see little blessings along the way, the likes of which remind me that He is still here and wants me to remember who I am through Christ Jesus. He doesn't want me to become so weak that I fall and can't get up. I don't need to remind anyone who has children, pays bills, or has health issues that life can be a real rat race. I suppose that's why it's called, "running the race," and not "sauntering along at a delightful pace."

I often believe that there's a tin can on a string running from my mouth to his ear and we are constantly talking on them across the divide. Sometimes, it seems that all I have to do is mutter the words and the circumstances can change. He's amazing that way. But He never overly extends the blessings to where I am unable to feel humility. He keeps me in a humble state. I'm grateful for it as I look around and see the high-minded and those who feel they are above others for various reasons. 'Lord, may I never feel above anyone ever.'

That all being said, "let us run with patience the race set before us." "The Lord is our strength and ever present help in times of need." There is nowhere else that I could turn in times of need. As the old baptist hymn goes, "where could I go...oh, where could I go...seeking a refuge for my soul, needing a friend to save me in the end...where could I go but to the Lord." That song has popped up in my times of trouble so often that I know now God gave it to me, because I always feel a little better when I sing that verse. Just that one. It's helpful to me.

You know, some people have everything. The cars, the house, the jewelry, and plenty more to be had because they have money. Simple as that. And I can't lie and say that I haven't asked the Lord to smite me with wealth and may I never recover from it LOL. I've often thought, 'money isn't everything and we can't take it with us when we go Lord, but I'd love to have none of the problems I have stemming from the lack of.' Then He takes me back to the subject of humility and tells me some things about myself. "Daughter, you have an expensive taste. You like nice things. Remember how you were when you had that nice car? Remember how you behaved when you were blessed with all the nice clothes you wanted whenever you wanted?" He reminds me that there was once a time when money wasn't an issue and I was a bit high-minded. I drove my nice car too fast and felt entitled to more than my share. Now, I have a positive outlook on not having money. He has afforded me all that I need but not more than my daily share. And that has humbled me. It's good! I'll gladly be poor and humble than rich and high-minded. (Not all rich are high-minded so please don't fuss at me and tell me so) :)

I had another trial arise and it has bore down on my shoulders like a mountain today, I know I know...my goodness what is going on here? LOL..just my life. It's like poultry in motion LOL (just a little cheeky humor for a moment) It's another landlord issue. That's not the point though, the point is that along with the issue that arrived, another issue lifted. It's as if God is balancing life a bit for me. "Never more than you are able to bear." Life could end at any time and I'm ready to go when it does. But while I'm here, I'm able to run this race knowing He's the one running alongside me. It all sounds so cliche and religious, but it's my true heart speaking about the one true living God.