We all have a choice to believe in something, I choose to believe in God!

Monday, May 14, 2012

guess title...MOTHER'S DAY, of course

Today is Mother's Day. How was yours? Mine was fantastic. I called my mother and we talked for 4 hours. No big deal to the daughter who has a close relationship and considers her mother to be her best friend. I am just bonding with mine, and that's been a long time coming.

We had fantastic conversation wherein I explained several things. For one, how I realize the bondage that religion had placed me in. Also, how free I feel now simply serving God just as His child, not His religious fem-bot. How I understand my relationship with Christ better than I ever did while attending church and going through the rituals.

"How do you know you understand your relationship with Christ better if you have no doctrine being taught to you to compare it to, Kelline?" the people ask. Why, I'll tell you dear friend. Because, I know peace now. Here's how we should know the difference between doing something out of our own will , and that of God's will for us. Do you experience peace? I did not, while attending church.

What I was supposed to experience was the pure joy of going to church to worship God and feeling the love and willingness to honor Him that way (yes she gets it). That's ideal when you're flowing in the Spirit. When you arrive, however, and the Spirit has to stay outside, it tends to quench the flame.

We are not perfect, and it's ridiculous to assume I quit going to church because of the people, per se. I quit going so I could receive the gift of freedom. If Jesus "came to set the captives free," then that means me. If "whom the Son has made free is free indeed" then that means me. If Jesus "came that they may have life and have it more abundantly" that applies to me. (Note: I realize "life" comes after death but there's no categorical statement as to that within this verse.)

How did I get started on that subject? Anyway, I had a great day. My youngest (the one struggling to put it all together), and not my oldest (the one who already has), popped in today unannounced and surprised me with a dinner invitation. I just wanted a good old greasy burger but he would have none of that. He INSISTED on taking me to a restaurant where we could go in somewhere...which I hate to do on the fly. Especially when it's Mother's Day and the crowds are high. But it made him happy to be with him and be thought of that highly, and I love him so.

My eyes are crossing. Must...get....sleep. I think I'll update this tomorrow. Goodnight earth.