We all have a choice to believe in something, I choose to believe in God!

Saturday, July 14, 2012


I feel it's always our responsibility to share the good news of what God does in our lives after we've wept about the things that went wrong.

Some of the issues I was facing during the previous post have been resolved but not all. I'm still in that pickle that I'm not sure I'll get out of. With that, I'm trying to see all the blessings that can be in it. There are some, but when I think about the situation, I just take a deep breath and let it out in a kind of exasperated way. I'm not the only one with troubles but may be I tend to see mine more than others do. I was diagnosed early in life with clinical depression and I read once that people with depression have an uncontrollable tendency to be drawn to the negative things in life instead of the positive. I find myself working against that quite a bit so it must be true.

Despite all of that, life isn't over yet and I have work to do. I forge ahead knowing that God has always been with me and will always be.

"Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?"..."For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8:35,38,39


  1. That is right Kelline, no one can separate us from the love of God and I find, even when things go wrong, there are others involved who God also loves. Look how you did some tidying up for your brother in law. It might only seem a small thing, but who knows what it was to him? Also I find that a lot of the trials and hardships I have gone through have strengthened me spiritually and physically to put my trust in God. I do not really go by what a doctor might diagnose, especially with things to do with the mind, as I believe they can leave a person with a complex. We are what God is making us, not what a person labels us as, and He knows the plans He has for us, for our welfare and not for harm. Always call on His name, He might not always resolve things in the manner or as quickly as we might expect it, but His way is always the best way. As we come through our trials we will always see that as we reflect on them, and we are able to advise and help people who go through the same things to also trust on Him. God bless you and increase your joy.

    1. Indeed, doctors and complexes. I usually find that even those afflictions which we're labeled with could have a value in the grand scheme of things. The Lord can use anything and everything about us. I'd like to think we're all perfect and without sickness but we both know that's not how it works. It's ideal in a perfect world for me to be in denial and say my mind is at rest and has peace but I've lived a long time with the symptoms.

      I do have a testimony with the depression however. I was 36 yrs old when the depression was upon me the worst it ever had been. I woke one morning to find myself physically unable to rise out of my bed with depression, and I was literally clawing at my skin. That part is not understood even today by me. But I said one thing, "Lord, please help me." At that moment...at that second I spoke out to Him, that feeling of deepest despair and confusion lifted from me and left my body for good. He healed me at that moment of the deep despair. I still have symptoms of depression but I've never again felt that kind of oppression on my flesh. I've never been too depressed to live, laugh, and love. That's the miracle of things like sickness. God gets the glory when we cry out for help and receive it!!

      Thanks for coming by Brenda! God bless and increase your joy as well!!

  2. ... I don't know, what to say.
    Another one ...
    I seem to have a kind of appeal concerning depressive people ...
    Or self-harming ones (see: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Self-harm ).

    Well, I hadn't asked a doctor yet, but sometimes I feel apathetic ... At least some of the symptoms fit to me. I know also, that it can be dealt with medicine, but I cannot bite pills ...
    However, I consider it as kind of "thorn in the flesh" (see: 2. Corinthians 12,7). If He is willing to heal it, he will do. Why should I ask?

    1. This is going to be a very odd question, can you still cry? What makes you cry?

  3. No, I cannot.
    Well, my eyes fill with tears and I feel sad, but it doesn't feel like crying ... it's more than another part ... not me ...

    The other question ... thinking of my stillborn child ...

    1. Apathy is a complete lack of emotion. I wonder if perhaps you aren't apathetic but rather sympathetic to only certain things, as I am sometimes. I don't feel overwhelming sadness for every situation I see in the world but some situations just fill my heart with sadness and I weep sore. If you feel sad and feel like crying then you are not apathetic. Perhaps you're desensitized to the things that others are sensitive to and therefore you do not feel as much when you experience or see these things.

      Andre, I am very sorry to hear of your child's passing. I understand that pain very well. My first grandson was murdered by his own mother and I never got to hold him or meet him. If that makes you cry, you're not apathetic at all. I think you are perhaps a strong person that doesn't break easily.

    2. Hm, maybe 'apathy' isn't the right word ...
      Dunno. I learned to handle with it.


    3. Yes, that's it! You learned to handle it. I hope you do make room for weak moments however. That's a time when the Lord can do mighty things and show how much you need Him. It's good, really good.


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