Note to self, God loves me and He's working it out. Stay close to Him, trust Him. He's gonna see me through. Today is a good day. I have an unusual lifting of my spirit. Something I've needed for some days now. Even my son, a man busy with his band and new son, noticed something happening to me spiritually. We often have to go through the valley to stand on the mountain. Being a Christian isn't about constant spiritual highs. It never seizes to disturb me to hear preachers tell their congregation that "you're a Christian, you should be the happiest person in the world." Really? How does one achieve that? By not seeing the starvation of children, murder, neglect, theft, drugs and alcohol and the destruction it causes? I say, if you're a Christian your heart should be burdened at all times if you live in the real world. I can't look around me and not be sad. I'll be happy when I get home. For now, I have to keep a vigilant watch over the tragedies of this time and pray for people. I'd rather cry my heart out every day for someone else's pain and feel compassion for them, then to walk around with a stupid grin on my face all the time as if I don't know that there's any suffering. I think a warm and burdened heart is a right heart. Just my opinion and desire for myself. Truly I'm bruised and battered. My spirit is sore from the battle. But, fight I must! Thank you Jesus for the strength.